*disclaimer* I just need to say that this post was written many times. Many things were written and then deleted. Paragraphs were switched around. Some sentences just didn't make sense at all. Trying to reflect on Leo's life as a whole obviously leaves me a bit at a loss for words. I think there's some good nuggets of truth in here. I know that scattered nature accurately reflects my mind as well. So, here's some thoughts from Leo's 3 years of life because I want to say so much but I never felt like it came out the way I wanted but I don't want that to keep me from sharing it :) A reflection on Leo's 3 years of life, from the perspective of his mom, written without fear of offending or coming across arrogant... I wish that his birthday brought only happy memories and not all the painful ones. We are overjoyed at who Leo is and how he is. We see great strength in his differences and interest in a life we never thought we'd have. But the very moment he wa...
Psalm 145:2 says, " Every day I will bless you and praise your name forever and ever." (ESV). It feels weird to praise God. We don't usually talk like that in day-to-day life. And it feels like a brag, like "look at all that's good in my life." This is the other part for me. I don't wanna say, "Just hang on. It will get better," because it might not. Life might suck and just not get better. God doesn't owe us that. But it doesn't mean that he's not present. What I mean is this: God loves. God heals. God redeems. And God gives good gifts. God gives comfort (let's not make those last two the same thing, right?). God also allows horrid things to happen. And He doesn't owe us better lives. We did not earn it. We do not earn it. God loves and God is just. I don't know if I know the words to say more than that here. As in, I'm trying to describe something that human minds can't resolve. So, if you wanna talk about...
What’s up with us these days? Here’s where it’s hard, where it’s been good, with a little bit of learning sprinkled in. Teeth: Can you pray for Leo’s teeth? And for how we handle teeth grinding? We moved up our dentist appointment for fear of damage to his teeth. Few things in Leo’s life have left me feeling more helpless. It is beyond infuriating to hear the grinding and be able to do nothing to stop it. If I start to think in terms of preventing it I assure you I will go crazy. We do think through, “What is he communicating? What does he need?” Teeth grinding is often a request—or need—for oral stimulation. One therapist suggested that maybe it’s Leo fidgeting. You know how you and I might tap a leg or twiddle thumbs? Well, his teeth are really the only two things that he can control bringing together. Does that make sense? He can bring them together and create stimulation. He can’t really do that in other ways. We also definitely notice teeth grinding when Leo is in pai...
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