I'm starting a new blog!

  My new blog!

    The blog we started on the night Leo was born had a very specific purpose. We could update our community on what our journey looked like. We could tell our community what was going on in our lives as we experienced one of the most difficult periods of our life. As Leo's days outside of the womb grew, we gave updates on each talk with a doctor, each appointment, each step of the journey. 4 years later, life looks very different. Things aren't changing as frequently. Routine does exist within medically complicated parenting. More than that, though, progress looks very different. 

    I have an interesting relationship with that word: "progress". Here's the thing, we often define "progress" in terms of physical capabilities. Toward the beginning of Leo's life, we were asking questions about Leo's weight gain, eating journey, physical development, and such. Through many of these questions, we could see "progress". We saw Leo go from "failure to thrive" to growing through different sizes of clothing. We know more of his physical development and it has slowed down in some visible ways. I don't feel like I'm explaining this well, but...I'm trying to say that I have struggled to come on here and give up some updates because there's not super clear updates to give. But I still want to share about our journey. 

So I'm starting another blog. 

    My first post on it tries to set the stage for the purpose of it as well as the reasoning behind the name. You can subscribe to it so that you get emails sent to you when I post. If you are interested to know how our family is doing and what life with Leo is like, follow my new blog. It'll be more of a journal set up than updates.

    Thanks for being with us. We love you guys. It's crazy to reflect how far God has carried us as I look back at all of the posts on this blog. And, to be clear, this blog will never disappear. I will always cherish this journey. 

Love y'all!

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