Leo, Our Little Lion Man

      In regards to said appointments, as well as further ponderings of Leo's eating/weight situation:     We saw our PCP on Friday for a wellness check for his 3 year birthday. I was nervous, and I need to say this. Any appointment I go to where they could say, "He's not gaining enough in my opinion," or "I really think you need to change ____ in his feeding regiment," (or anything of the sort) is an anxiety-producing appointment for me. Right now, that means PCP, GI, and Nutrition.      So, headed to PCP I was praying for peace. And--here comes the babble--I've been pondering things lately. Like why do I feel anxiety when I think of people changing Leo's feeding regiment? Why do I feel stress when I think of disagreeing with what a medical professional suggests that Leo needs? What am I telling myself about my motherhood? And stuff like that. I've been trying to dive into the ins and outs of this. Obviously (for those who have read Leo's st

 *disclaimer* I just need to say that this post was written many times. Many things were written and then deleted. Paragraphs were switched around. Some sentences just didn't make sense at all. Trying to reflect on Leo's life as a whole obviously leaves me a bit at a loss for words. I think there's some good nuggets of truth in here. I know that scattered nature accurately reflects my mind as well. So, here's some thoughts from Leo's 3 years of life because I want to say so much but I never felt like it came out the way I wanted but I don't want that to keep me from sharing it :) A reflection on Leo's 3 years of life, from the perspective of his mom, written without fear of offending or coming across arrogant... I wish that his birthday brought only happy memories and not all the painful ones. We are overjoyed at who Leo is and how he is. We see great strength in his differences and interest in a life we never thought we'd have. But the very moment he wa

 Some goings-on in the Wilcox family :D Leo got a haircut. We shaved the little lion's mane. But it'll grow back. I promise! We just think he's the cutest. So, when he gets a straight buzz, I've been doing it. I feel very accomplished that I can buzz his head and get us both cleaned up afterwards. However, when he gets more of a haircut it's either my sister or my cousin doing it while I hold him. I'm a big fan of the buzz, though. We had a family filled Christmas. Blessed. To be a blessing. Holidays were sweet times. A little story from them: We did a Friendsgiving one night and met some friends of friends. One guy asked to hold Leo and then offered to keep him while Brad and I got food and ate. It was a beautifully weird feeling to plate my food with Brad and sit down and eat while hearing Leo's happy noises from the couch. Leo was chatting away and the guy was so great with him. It was so wonderful to practice setting aside the voices of, "Is he frus